Friday, October 25, 2013

We have a DATE!!!

November 5, 2013 
we will be leaving on a jet plane.

Traveling half way around the world to meet our daughter for the first time.

Our sweet daughter we love so much and have never touched.

I'm so overwhelmed with emotions and having a hard time focusing on anything else right now.

I am focusing on soaking in as much time with my 4 older sweeties right now.

Trying to have some quality time, make fun memories, and shower each other with lots of love. 

I'm hoping I can keep it together to say goodbye to these bumpkins! 

And, then, my sweet baby girl will suddenly be placed in my arms and again I will be forced to keep it all together.  

Be gracious with me...I'm going to fail miserably at both these tasks!

Oh sweet princessa, momma and daddy are almost there!!

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Be Inspired!

In case you missed the big announcement, we have officially moved to the top of the waiting line! We will be the next family receiving their travel date!

I am officially thrilled, terrified, anxious, excited...

You name it, I've probably felt it this last little bit!

I've been so focused on the financial piece of our puzzle. It is an important piece, but it isn't the most important.

A sweet friend of mine shared this video with me today.

It was EXACTLY what I needed to see. 

Please watch it and be inspired!

One of our prayers is that through our adoption other families would get excited and their hearts would be stirred to prayerfully consider adoption for their own family. 

We can't change the world, but each of us has the potential to completely change one child's world!

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Matching Grant

We have been given the gift of a $350 matching grant.

What a blessing!

Our FSP needs to read 


Once we raise the $350 they will match it making the total $700.

That amount will cover one of our plane tickets over to get our baby girl!

Can YOU help us meet our goal today?

Make a TAX Deductible donation HERE

Thank you!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Is this it???

As a new week is about to begin, I can't help but wondering if this is our week! Please, let it be!

I'm not sleeping much.

My mind doesn't focus on much else at this time.

I'm trying to prepare myself mentally for what is about to happen. However, can one ever truly be prepared? At this exact time I find myself worrying most about my other four kids.  How am I going to kiss them goodbye knowing it will be weeks before I hug or kiss them again?

They are going to be well loved and cared for and probably will have a great time playing with the cousins.  But, I also know there will be moments they miss us.

Or, what about when they get scared and I'm not there to squeeze them.

Or, what happens if they get sick or hurt.  I know they are going to want mommy.  But, I won't be there.  They'll get plenty of hugs, kisses, and love, but not mommy love.  

I feel guilty.

I feel afraid.

I feel sad.

Just typing this makes my heart ache and tears flow from my eyes. I'm going to miss them so much!

But, I'm going to a sweet baby who has never had a mommy to hold her when she's scared.  Or rock her when she's sick. Or kiss her when she has an owie.  I'm going where I need to be. 

When all is said and done, the memory of mommy being gone for a few weeks will quickly fade and life will return to normal for them.  

Life will never return to normal for the fifth. That's the point. As time goes on she will forgot feeling afraid, lonely, and abandoned.  As each day passes, those memories will forever be replaced with hugs and kisses and more love than she even knows exists.  

Soon, baby girl, soon!

Mommy loves you!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

A Gentle Whisper...

Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you;
therefore he will rise up to show you
How gracious he will be when you cry for help!
As soon as he hears, he will answer you.
Isaiah 30:18-19

We have been experiencing His graciousness in such a real way.

We ask, He answers, and yet we still catch ourselves trapped in the cycle of worrying.  

It's such a disturbingly comfortable place to be in.


Maybe by worrying I feel like I have some sense of control. Because, you know, worrying always gets things done, right?? Oh, wait...

Then I wake up and I recognize the cycle I've once again succumbed to and I rest my soul back in the arms of the one who truly has everything under His control.

It feels good.

I feel refreshed, calm, peaceful.

I cry to Him for help.  He hears my cries.

Sometimes, like today, when I've been worrying about the financial reality of our adoption, He gives me a tangible reminder through the generous gifts of others.

Most other times He just gently whispers in my ear...

Do not let your hearts be troubled....
John 14:1